What I Am Reading Right Now and Why

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In one of my last posts called, “Love Letter To Myself“ I wrote about what I am going through at the moment and how I am not able to get out of this dark place that I am in. Towards the end of the post, I mentioned a book, I had found, called “Fear: Essential Wisdom for Getting Through the Storm by Thich Nhat Hanh”. I am in the process of reading it and so far, it is mind-opening. Now, I know that there are many times that we try and look for information, products, books, or solutions for our everyday lives, troubles, sadness, stress, and so on. And we can get overwhelmed by the amount of information out there, you know, all the freaking recommendations, the book reviews on hundreds of sites. I mean it can get overwhelming and at the end of it all, we are still not sure what to read or listen to. So, what do we do, we read the reviews and hope that possibly this product, book, or whatever you are trying to figure out is right for us? So, I just happen to stumble across this book during my search on how I can get myself out of this dark place. I mean there were a lot of results when I did my search, and I read many reviews on many books, and even with those reviews it was tough to decide because you never know right, one person’s likes are not necessarily other people’s like. The summary or synapsis of the book, whatever you want to call it, caught my eye and I figured why not give it a shot, it wasn’t too long of a read, so I went ahead and purchased it. This is what caught me, which I just grabbed as-is from the search I did on the internet.

“Thich Nhat Hanh shows us that by looking deeply and embracing our whole experience with acceptance, love, and understanding, we can go beyond fear and anxiety to find fearlessness and inner peace.”

The reason I grabbed this book, was because for the last maybe month and a half I have been struggling to move forward with my blog, my online business, and pretty much everything. If you have had the chance to read any of my posts on my attempt to start an eCommerce business, you would know from the last post about it, that it hasn’t produced any sales at all, well one sale, but it ended up being a refund. Work right now isn’t giving me that satisfaction I use to get from the job, and I am not sure if I should move to a new company or not. I know, I know, I am lucky to have a job, I get that, but once again I think I need something else – I am not sure. Now, like I said these last few months I have not been motivated or have had any drive to move forward and all I find myself doing is getting up at 5 am each morning and working at my day job, then signing off and either taking a nap for a couple of hours while my wife finishes her daycare, or I just sit outside looking at the kids until they are all gone. It has become a routine, not a good one necessarily, which takes me from the bed to my office chair, back to my bed, or sit outside, and then repeat.

I know it was the same post that I talked about the book, “A Love Letter to My Body” that sort of gave me that “Aha moment”, which made me think I needed to step back a minute and try and figure what the heck is going on with me. I am sure I have been here several times in my lifetime, but this time for some reason it felt harder, sadder, and more disappointing to me and I wanted to get out of it. I wasn’t sure what to do and my first thought was, “Hey why not see if there is a good readout there to, you know, get you going again”. As I am reading the book, I am opening up my mind to what the author says, and many times the words that I am reading, and the concepts that are being presented have been in front of me in one format or another, but maybe the way the words are ordered is what is catching my curiosity so far. I am just two chapters in, and it has been an eye-opener thus far. Once I am done with the book, I do intend to talk about it, let you know what I think, and how it hopefully helped me in my time of need – so far so good.

In the meantime, I do appreciate you stopping by and of course, as I always do or try at least, leave you with a thought, “Nothing is easy to the unwilling. – Nikki Giovanni – Poet.”